January 28th, 2017 ~ Day 309
Heading to the trails for something quick and easy, I went to Thunderbird Mountain, the closest to my house. I missed the National Trail Trek today. I couldn’t do it and I wasn’t able to get to the trails until later in the evening. Honestly, I kept myself busy with other things because I didn’t want to be out here. It’s just another sad day out here on the mountain. Trying to cope. Keeping myself moving, one day at a time. Trying to make my hike as short as possible because I don’t want to be here.
January 29th, 2017 ~ Day 310
Today I made it to Thunderbird, hiking alone, I hiked a portion of the Desert Iguana Trail. Crying as I’m hiking, the sadness taking over me. The loss of my mother is becoming overwhelming. I don’t want to be out here. I’m beginning to hate the fact that I set myself up for this challenge, but I keep pushing through. Thinking my mom would want me to.
January 30th, 2017 ~ Day 311
Another quick hike at Thunderbird today. I’m only out here to accomplish this goal of hiking everyday. Making myself walk through this pain. I don’t care how small the hike is as long as I get out here and hike. Eric joined me today, my rock in all this pain, carrying me through the most difficult time of my life.
January 31st, 2017 ~ Day 312
Another quick hike at Thunderbird today. I did the same loop as yesterday, just different by starting at the parking lot off 67th. I felt I had to be alone today, which only made it worse. I cried my entire hike. One day I know it won’t hurt so bad, but now isn’t that time.